The Second Annual Voodoo Island 1950's Tiki Ball was held at the Millennium Harvest House Outdoor Pavilion and Pool on Saturday, August 31, 2013 (you know the night before I had to move). I had been asked to help teach a class on vintage hair and makeup; my area being lips. Yes, to answer your next question, I'll try to fit in a tutorial on here.
If you haven't figured it out by now, I love any excuse to get dressed up in one of my "fancier" dresses. This year's Tiki Ball was no exception. I wore my lovely red Hawaiian dress with sash, red rhinestone earrings, Betsy Johnson Polly's, an armful of Bakelite bangles, and my oh so lovely Lucite purse (post coming about it soon).
It started raining and was very humid again this year, so my lovely wet set quickly disintegrated into a mess of hair by the time my group went for dinner.
Now for some serious talk...
As I was looking at these photos, I realized that I had lost a little weight. Now my weight loss has been completely unintentional as I loved my body the way it was before I dropped 16 pounds / 7.26 kilos. Most people would be thrilled and possibly motivated about the weight loss.
The terrible part is that I think I have now developed an actual complex about my prior weigh. This was never a problem before the weight loss. I didn't think that I had an amazing body but I also liked my body. I was truly comfortable inside my own skin.
My pre-weight loss waist measured between 30 - 31.5 inches / 76.2 - 80 cm. My current waist measures 27.5 inches / 69.85 cm.
As a comparative here are pictures from last years Tiki Ball.
I look at the photos and I see a lovely lady who is overweight instead of just a lovely lady. Had you asked me before my sudden weight loss what I thought of myself I would have just told you that I looked nice. That my hair was fabulous. That my swimsuit was terrific. That I loved these photos.
I now find myself wanting to hid them from people. How stupid is that honestly?
I ultimately want to love myself and my body no matter what weight or size I am at but I have found myself regularly measuring my waist and changing my eating habits to ensure I stay at a 27.5 or lower waist. The real issue being that I would like to loss more weight.
Have you ever suddenly become obsessed with your weight? Embarrassed of your body whether it was now or then? How did you get past it? Did you get past it?